Today I’m thankful that things have worked out with getting the final year project supervisor I wanted - and having met her and getting on really well, I feel a lot more positive about next year. I don’t need to worry about it so much!
I’m thankful to God that He knew my situation and how I was feeling today - and provided accordingly. One gone but another returned. Tiding me over. Keeping my head above the water. It’s hard, but I will keep on swimming. I will reach dry land.
What I might do today
Read Dorian Gray
Start making my Handbook for ‘things that make me happy’
Buy paint samples
Take photos of flowers in Dane John
Do some sketches
What I will do today
Go to the cinema
Get my Paris photos developed
Today I thank God that He is greater than any power, any darkness, any principalities or any rulers. Therefore I have nothing to fear.
Today will not be tainted with sadness. I don’t want to think, I want to just be. To follow what my heart feels…
"rejoice, o young man, in your youth, and let your heart cheer you in the days of your youth. Walk in the ways of your heart and the sight of your eyes. But know that for all these things God will bring you into judgement. "
I’m going to just be, and not think. I will follow my heart and what I see without analysis. I won’t worry about whether what I’m doing is right. Because that’s ok. Gods love is not contingent on what I do or think.
You have the right to be lonely.
If you feel like you’re not worthy, it’s okay.
If you feel like you’re a shitty person, honey that’s alright.
You have the right to feel sorry about yourself,
you have the right to feel sad about your failures;
because you’re human.
If you feel like you need to mourn every morning
because you lost yourself along the way,
go ahead and cry.
If you feel like you need to break your ribs
to find good reasons to bring them back in their proper places,
go ahead and rip your skin apart and remove your bones
one by one.
Don’t forget to tell yourself that you’re entitled of your own feelings.
But since you’re allowed to be sad,
Do yourself a favor.
Allow yourself to be happy.
Allow yourself to cry because of laughing so hard.
Allow yourself to stay up late at night watching your favorite movies.
Allow yourself to get drowned with the happiest emotions that you
Allow yourself to fall in love with yourself more and more,
I need to allow myself to be happy and to enjoy things - to relish life!! Nobody is stopping me, apart from me.